Meditation

Yulin Liu

Mosaic 1

Meditation Journal

Day 1, 07/30

The hardest part of everything is the first step. I knew the process of meditation and did what I should to do: sitting down on a quiet space, elongating my spine, resting my hands, relaxing my shoulders, resting my gaze and staying stillness. However, I could only hold that status in few minutes and then could not concentrate anymore. At the very beginning I was capable to empty my mind, but only kept for a second, then some distracting thoughts began to spawn into my brain. Failed on the first day.

Day 2, 07/31

Taking as same gestures and processes just as the first day, but the difference is that I knew what can distracted me during the meditation. With that caution, I tried my best to get rid of distracting thoughts by taking this easy instead of being forced to concentrate myself. After that, it worked and seems does not matter about time. One obvious fact is that I could forget about the passing of time and settle down into the meditation. Believe or not, I made it for nearly 20 minutes without suffering my previous trouble.

Day 3, 08/01

I had to halt my meditation because I got a headache during the whole day. I was too pained to concentrate myself for every time. Therefore, I had to announce the failure of meditation.

Day 4, 08/02

I had a bad day at school and I felt like I didn’t want to do anything. I was chilling on the bed all day after school because fortunately I didn’t have any homework for tomorrow. Still, since I continue to meditate, I did so before I go to sleep. Then I came to realize that meditation gives me opportunities to face myself when I become deflated or have an anxiety. At times like that, I tend to escape from the matter and try to get them away from my mind; though I have learned the importance of facing my problems, not turning away from them. My feeling has become great, even though I was depressed before meditation.

Day 5, 08/03

I assumed happiness was always felt when we achieve some difficult goal, though actually, it was not. Truthfully, happiness is always nearby; in addition, it costs nothing and is fuss-free. I was meditating for 30 minutes today. Meditation makes me comfortable, and I can see myself from the third person. If I can keep this sense, I would be able to act with making transgressions because I believe people make transgressions only when they cannot see themselves. There is really a lot to learn about meditation.