My Emotions - Personal Speech

When I am in love, my emotions get so twisted that it is hard for me to decode them. I know it sounds strange to say that, even you don’t know how you feel. We all think that we’ll know the second we start liking someone. But the truth is that we can be completely ignorant to the fact that we’ve developed feelings for someone else.

I think this happens the most when it’s with people we’ve known for a long time. I recently found myself won over by my best friend who has been just a friend of mine for a few years. I was struck hard with the realization that I actually liked the guy. I was convinced for the longest time that I couldn’t like my best friend because he was just my friend and I couldn’t cross that line. This made me blind to the fact that I was displaying the most obvious signs that I was totally into him. Even my sister could tell, yet I had no idea myself.

I talked to him all the time. Answering his text messages and phone calls right away? Oh well I get used to it. We are always together. Exchanging jokes, laughing at each others mistakes. I like teasing him. I get butterflies whenever I see him but I don’t know why.

Then one day, I talked to myself. In order for me take off the blinders and find out how I really feel for my best friend, I have to be willing to be truly honest with myself. I am displaying a lot of signs, it could mean that I like him and don’t even know it.

I realized, my mind played tricks on my feelings. It inhibits me to truly realizing what I really feel for him. I know it is crazy how we sometimes can’t even tell ourselves if we have feelings for someone. But now, I can finally say that I like my best friend!