Retrospective Analysis of Personality 

Assignment 1: Retrospective Analysis of Personality 

Melissa Carroll

12/4/15

PSY105

Dr. Hayes

Anything dealing with my life history is extremely hard for me to do. The reason for this is because I have some memory loss, due to a car accident. So to do this paper I’m going to be relying on family and friends. They are the only people I can think that would be able to help me with something like this. Hopefully they will be honest and as forth coming as I need them to be.

So I have been told that I was somewhat of a follower never a leader. I was bullied, pushed around, and just plan beaten down. I use to sit back and watch things happen. I was never one to join really anything. I was a loner. I was completely miserable. I was extremely depressed and suicidal. I didn’t do well in school. I never got invited to parties and I never had a boyfriend. I lied to make people like me. I started drinking at the age of 13. As I got older some things stayed the same. I was still very depressed and suicidal.  I started getting in a lot of trouble. I was still being bullied but in a much more serious way. I started being physically and sexual abused. But more things changed.

.        I became a bully. But I was the bully that bullied the other bullies. If I saw someone who couldn’t protect themselves or someone who was mentally/physically handicapped being bullied then I stepped in and bullied the person who was doing the bullying. I started going out more. I started doing somewhat better in school. I started joining things. I was on the track team, drama club, key club, and was even on prom committee. After high school I also started using drugs. And my drinking became even worse. I started dating a major drug dealer. I was living far from home, and at this point didn’t care about anyone but my boyfriend, myself, and my drugs. I stopped reading, which is something I started doing in the eleventh grade for relaxing. After a few months of this life things all changed for me.

After a long night of drinking and intense drug using, my boyfriend and best friend decided that we needed more alcohol. Now this best is a recollection of what people hav told me after the fact. I was the person with the money but I was already passed out on the couch, so the boys put me into the vehicle thinking that I would wake up before we got to the store.

Unfortunately, I never got the chance to wake up. About 2 miles down the road my then fiancée lost control of the car. Now the police have told me that they estimate the vehicle was traveling approximately 80mph. When he lost control of the vehicle we started swerving and the part of the car where the gas tank was hit a telephone pole. We then spun out of control even more. The police estimated that our vehicle flipped at least 5 times before I was thrown from the windshield. I was thrown 50 feet and then landed in water. Because of this accident I now have metal in my right side from neck to foot. I’m still having back problems that I’m facing surgeries for. I have memory loss and problems. I will never be able to do my dream job or be able to do a lot of things that I may want to. But time goes on.