Personal Experience

I was married in 1976 to a man that was very abusive to me. He would beat me all the tme for about 5 years. He would wake up thinking about how he could degrade me in every way. He was the most disrespectful amn that I knew. I found out later that his mom was abused by his father. Still I felt that it didn't give him the right to do the same thing to me. I went through 5 years of this abuse. I thought at one time I was going to lose my mind. He made me feel like I was nothing. He beat even if I asked questions sometimes. I couldn't even look at him without something being throwed at me. I would be in the kitchen and he would hit me with something.

It got to the point that I had no self-esteem or cared what I looked like. I had to stay away from my family. I even had to stop going to see my mom that how bad it got. I couldn't even say the work mom to him without him punching me in the head or face. I would use the bathroom and if I stayed in there to long he would kick the door in.

I wanted to leaver but I was to afraid to do that. I told me if I leave him he would do harm to my family. I stayed there until I got pregant with his son. He beat me before then and I lost 2 baby doing that time. He tried to make me lose this one but God saw fit to let me have him. Knowing he couldn't make me lose this child gave me strenght to get out of that marrage.