The Girl Who Have Never Been a Lady

I guess i have been through a lot since I was a kid that I just learned how to take things on my own and understand the way people are around me. I was 3 years young when Mom and dad had a problem that they both had to leave me with my mom's family. I mean with my grandparents, uncles and aunts. Yes, they both left me. They met each other, loved each other, made love and made me. Last but not the least, they left me. See how abandoned I was? I was but not at anymore. I grew up trying to know everything. What, how and why did it happened and where dad is now. Well, mom left but she came back atleast. She was just not privilege to take care of me because some circumstances. So those questions were answered by myself through myself. I prefer claiming it myself for I don't know if I was supposed to believe the people I asked. They might just told me their point of views inorder to make me feel better but it may be not the whole truth. So I decided to calculate every details I have collected from people and I made my own point of view . I still thanked them for the ideas though. As what I have said, I learned how to take things on my own. I am not an "abandoned child" . I have a lot of people around me, supporting me and cared for me. In fact, I was able to finish my studies in a prestigious school and even experience going out of the country. I do not intend to brag about these things but my point is "I couldn't ask for more". All of these were blessings to me but ofcourse it was not easy to be who I am now. I cannot deny the fact that my life was not perfect after all. I was just a little girl when I cried looking for my father's presence but still never saw him. I cried craving for a my mom's tender loving care. I had to pretend I was okay every family day event at school. Family pictures hurt me the most. I pretended to be fine with everything that I'm not. I had no choice but to be strong because there is