Ed Boone - Personal Love Essay

Ed.

It’s been one month since I left. It’s seven minutes after midnight. There are currently butterflies circling around my head. Ed. I want you to know that I’m happy now. But, I know that through all our tough times, I will always love you, and never will I stop. All I want is for you to be happy. It's time. Christopher, he is so lucky to have you as his father, I know may not have always been the best mother, and the one who can keep him safe. But I know that this is right. I’ve found someone new who I can share my life with but that doesn’t mean that my love for the both of you will ever go away or be forgotten. This past month I've been happier than I’ve ever been. I’ve always put my focus towards Christopher and I wasn’t happy. I’ve never let the thought of you two out of my head, but I guess this is what I have needed. I’ve never pt focus and love towards myself and I’ve realised that I’ve been putting all my effort out for you two and that wasn’t good for me. Roger has helped me find myself again. Every since we had found out that Christopher was special, all I I ever wished was for a normal life. We fell in love but that was a long time ago, we’ve changed and we both know it. I know I’m a bad person for saying that but honesty I know you’ve felt it to. Christopher is an incredible child but I know that I’m not right for him, he deserves someone better. I understand that I’ve hurt your feelings by choosing Roger over you. Love you but I miss the old you. The way you’d make me dinner, help clean up, open the car door for me and say I love you everyday.

Ed. This obviously isn’t the right time but there’s something you should know, about 3 years ago, I was pregnant again. Your baby. But I was just so scared that we would get another child just as Christopher. I already couldn’t handle the stress that Christopher was giving me let alone how I stopped