Taming of the Shrew

Dear Diary, so now its all done, there’s no going back, I am wed to Lucentio I can’t help but be jealous of Katarina. No more will ‘I be your bird, I mean to shift my bush,” spread my wings and show my true colours, flourish into the person I want to be, not the person I’m expected to be. I am happy for Kate, she has finally found somebody who deserves somebody as amazing as thy Kate. I am envious of Kate’s ability to be herself and always follow what she wants. She has always known who she is and stuck by her thoughts and beliefs. Her pure determination to never let society get the better of her is something I envy alone. I have been so hung up on finding the perfect man and now that I have found him, I know that he fell in love with the person I had created myself to be not who I really am. We have had our differences, but right now all I am is envious of thy. Don't get me wrong I am quite happy with Lucentio. He is everything I have ever wanted in a guy, sweet, gentle, he followers the social order and does everything right. I couldn't ask for more, he is the reality to the picture I have created in my mind of the perfect husband, the perfect father for my children. I was fake for so long for, when I show my true self he will be too soft spoken to say anything, his heart filled with too much love to repel and his mind too sweet to be angry. My plan has worked, better than I could have ever imagined.

Kate has always been herself, confident, spontaneous, strong willed, opinionated, spoken her mind and then there was me, the one who followed what everybody said, did what they told me to, never questioned anything, wore the right clothes and up till now, its got me what I want but now It’s my turn to show everyone who I really am, no more hiding, no more pretending and no more Queen of smiles . I detest societies views on women the unfair rules, structures and un-acceptance of who people really are. I envy