My Faith in God

I grew up in a Catholic family where have taught me how to live with my belief in God. I also evolved it in a community having a good tradition of faith. Obviously, I have that faith in my mind like a custom without any doubts, or actually, I did not know if I felt dubitative or not.

Similarly many other children in the community, I had to go to the church every Sunday to hearing and studying the Bible. I also was taught to believe in God, and everything He has done in my life. Although doing all of this in my whole childhood, I did not trust in Him too much. Whether God existed or not, it didn’t matter to me. After having gone far to studying, I had to face with many things affecting on what I had learned about my faith.

When knowing about Darwin's evolution theory, showing we were not created by God but by a natural selection, I totally did not agree with it. I, even so, were confused and felt doubt about my faith after facing with many questions were set up to me. Nonetheless, when I have been confronting with many problems in my life, and when I could not find anyone consoling me, then the finally one I always think is God. When I also have felt impasse with my decisions, the last one I think is God. Even though always finally thinking about Him, I constantly feel comfort after talking to Him. I, moreover, feel peaceful every time I come to see Him although not really an ethical person. Whenever I come to see and pray with Him, I just simply sit there and look at Him to think about my problems and let Him leads me.

From Him spreading out a power to relieve all my troubles, and it makes me feel better. I have learned my life is always better when I am living in line with God. All my trials are easier with him by my side. It is not my natural state to be peaceful in a stressful time, but anytime I slow down and quiet down, I feel His hand is reaching out and handing me blessings even in my darkness time. Nevertheless, not all