Uncovered Emotions

                                                           Uncovered Emotions

I woke up one day feeling so many emotions hard to describe, but yet again I had been feeling this way ever since I lost him. The day he left rainbows and butterflies died. Enraged with myself and others I shut everyone out and kept my feelings to myself without letting anyone by. I hated him for leaving me with such agony in my heart which made it feel too fragile to live with. I put up all my trust and devotion to him. He made me feel as if I was on top of the world. Not only was he a friend and a companion, he was supposed to be my heart and soul. I was torn between disappointment and yearning. I yearned for him to come back and wake me up from this unbearable and terrifying dream. No matter what happened in the past if he was to come back I would not look back once because he is and will be worth it. Now as I see what he thought was best for me only made me worst. Did he ever think about how this decision affected me? It made me fall into an endless black hole where hopes, dreams, and love where thrown down. When he left he sent wolves lunging at my heart. Ripping out piece by piece slowly till there wasn’t a trace of it left. Then they left me to die a painful cruel death. As the days go on I sit by the river thinking. What did I do wrong, how can I change the past and make everything better?   All I can do know is just try to fill my numb little heart with memories of what the future could have looked like.